Friendship

03.10.12
Saturday was my birthday party. It was a sleepover like it is every year. I invited 9 people and one invite was late, they were to be at my house at 5:00. At 5ish Emily B, Lydlz and Laura came then half past Flisty came, Ashleigh came at 6ish and CJ came at 6:30ish then Emily C came at 1amish. So 7 people came, Tash couldn't because the invite was too late and it was her sisters part, understandable, and my best friend Jade couldn't come because she had a date at thorpe park the next day. Now you may have noticed the 1amish arrival earlier, that was Emily she was had to babysit her younger brother but she waited and still made the effort to be there for me; CJ came late because of work, she still put effort into coming here, Ashleigh had work the next day and didn't want to be tired so she left at 12, Lydlz had work the next day, she sat an alarm to wake up well before 9 when she had to leave. Those three people put the effort in to be there for my birthday and my best friend didn't, I did get a text from her though, in the morning when she drove past. I said she could of stayed and been picked up on the way and she claimed she didn't know they would be driving past to get to thorpe park when one year she came to one birthday party late because she just came back from thorpe park, she knew it was on the way she's been there loads. She could of also left early it started at 5 she could of had plenty of time before she had to leave. She told me she couldn't come the day before the party and she knew 2 weeks and 1 day in advance when my sleepover was and there was an on going. I'm upset. I've been crying on and off because Jade hurt me, now she may of forgotten the journey but still I can't help it. Me and Jade have been friends for about 6 years  and people say when you leave secondary school your bound to get more and more distant but we didn't think that would happen too us. Ever. We even went to the same college, yet it's happened. I spend more time with people who's names who I don't even know or even in my class than I am with Jade.

21.11.12
So what was written earlier was something I forgot about, but now i'm adding too. The thing with my party was me being petty and after talking to her I realise that. Since my birthday Jade lost her great grandmother and her grandfather, I tried to be there for her both times, but I was unaware unti too late and clashing schedules stopped us. I miss her, very much, even more than I did when when first started dating. We were so close. If someone told me a secret and I promised to never tell anyone, I would still tell Jade, we were so close we joked that we were one and everything had to be shared. I have no idea is she had the same feelings as I did, but we were so in sync it was like we were one person and I loved it. Teachers would say one of our names, expecting one or both of us to answer, regardless of which name was being called. If one was there then so was the other, until Jake, exams, holiday, college and now new friends. It isn't just her I miss, I miss Everyone but I'm seeing them more than Jade and they don't even go to my college. On the plus side I've become very close with Laura, who is an absolute star :) she has her flaws I need getting used too, same as everyone, I hope she feels we can be close aswel.
Just finishing a draft.
Rainiepie
xoxoxo