Sup, brah

Hiya readers ,

I just started  just started this tumbler because i thought i needed to start one as people seem to like it so i'm trying it:)  I'm just reposting the my firstpost on here coz i kinda like it more so far, I dunno why people get addicted to it:/ Yeah no one follows me and i post boring shit but OH WELL k proceed with the post: Okay so im a HUGE procrastinator and when I try to isolate my self so I can work, I bring something to procrastinate with. This week I had to revise for mocks and these are things I did instead over and over again :

- Watch YouTube videos

-Read Wattpad.com stories

-Play World of Warcraft

-Play Sims 3 

- Start the hobby of candle making 

- Start the hobby of making stuff with clay

- Start a project where I create my Fursona 

-Go on DeviantArt

-Do extra work for my extra I.T GCSE (admittedly only a tiny bit)

-Tidy up my room (admittedly only a tiny bit)

- Reorganise my bookshelf (admittedly only a tiny bit)

- Start multiple sewing projects 

- Puppy sit 

-Wash cat ( trust me he's a persian and because of the big eyes they produce this gunk and because they're nose is so small when they wash they rub it all over themselves and stains white fur)

- Make complicated pasta ( I accidentally put mint in it instead of Pesto)

-Clean mirror

-Play with make up

- Watch porn ( JK :P )

- Make coffee( It wasn't nice, it was this $hity instant stuff that taste horrid) 

So yeah I did all that in 4 days that more than I would do any other week, so .....my conclusion is procrastinating is good thing :) You get other work done as well as enjoyment.

*When I was taling to my friend Lydlz I realised I forgot to put practice handwriting as my mum sets that as homework for me out of school . 


Ta Ta :)

My future sucks

Today I spoke to the person who determined my life over phone. Half way through September,  my year in school had an assembly telling us about work experience. By the time 2010 had ended I had contacted every video type work place in Somerset and some in Wiltshire (from two companies that specialise in wallace and grommet type things) and anxiously waited for their  reply . I got none. I chased them all up via email . One  apologised  and said they thought they had sent a reply letter , another had saying no and that's all the reply I got. I waited for their replies for a month and on the side contacted 6 photographers and 2 graphic designers they said no and the replies still hadn't arrived so I gave up then and went to move on to the animation companies . One wanted a hand written letter too compare me  to lots of other interested people , he also wanted me to bring in a show reel , i told him i didn't have one . he wished me good luck and said goodbye . I chose not to send the letter as it was clear i wouldn't get the place and my handwriting is atrocious . I phoned the other company after that and they asked for a letter I asked if by email was okay .They said yes , quicker that way. I got a reply saying that week is fine and there is plenty for me to do there that week , the guy said we just want to know why you want this . I replied with pretty much an essay talking about my passion for video work. two days after the reply. I waited eagerly again hoping to send the forms soon i only had a week and 2 days left . the reply never came . i called and rang over and over and over again for 2 weeks and 3days . yes past my deadline . I was stuck . I phoned a local shop and asked for a placement there no reply . i was way past my deadline by now. eventually the teacher we have for this kind of thing talked to me offered for me to do a project and contacted a company that would sponsor it. I don't know what they said she never talked to me , until i received a notice that morning in tutor asking me to see her in her office about  a woman who came in to talk to me about jobs and just for me work experience . she was going to help me , except my bitch of a drama teacher wouldn't let me go since it was in her lesson. we weren't doing anything important .  I soon gave up on that idea and in the half term after my prepaid little holiday with Jade I went to Glastonbury high street to ask for places .  One woman said she already had one for the week there . Another said she wasn't sure and gave a me a number to contact about it  and said i couldnt call till wednesday. another place looked very very promising . They liked me we had a chat I sneakily showed them how ideal  was for the job even for a week and it loked good they asked me to come back round next week after a few days . I forgot i had to go there and when i remembered the shops would be closed when i got there , so i phoned. She said it wouldn't be an experience and during that week they want to close for a couple of days and go out and they can't do that f i'm there so a no from them . I then phoned the number the woman gave me . It was on hold . for a very long time . After 10 minuets of waiting i finally got through , the guy there said i had  wrong number and gave me the correct one . I phoned up , no answer the shop had closed . I am going to have to go to school for that week and be the only one because  I am the last one in the entire year. I am never going to get a job . I am never going to move out. I am never going to be able to afford rent in my parents house. I am going to be a starving dirty hobo and as i stood in the mirror struggling to lift my double chin up at the same time as squeeze the big fat spot under my double chin I realised I am way too ugly to even be a prostitute to earn money. I can't get a part time job , I have tried . I can't get work experience ,I have tried and im not going to get a life . The left of my existence is from now to end of year 11 and hopefully i will get enough bloody c's to make up for shitty d's and at least get one A level . Now excuse me I have to revise for a drama test i'm going to fail much to the hobag from hells glee ( yes the same demon who wouldn't let me go ) Joy

Sigh

Okay rather than explaining y I havnt uploaded I'm just gonna start. I have had an up and down weekend. It was the first weekend of Easter holidays YAY I'm going to Emilys for a sleepover YAY with my sister ugh I missed jades BBQ ugh we had fun YAY emily and I touched each other in unknown ways to young girls ;) I heart her baby bewbs :p nxt morning fine swell had IFC for breakfast went shopping with no money got pissed of at clears for being expensive off lip balm for £8 who's gonna buy that ?! Then my boyfriend tested me YAY he said wubu2 nd I was like shopping blah blah miss u xoxo then he was like he need to have a serious talk nd I was like uh oh shit u gonna dump me nd he was like yer sorry then explained nd I got upset then angry nd argued then guilty then apologised . And I'm pretty bloody disappointed . I'm gonna be all sappy and admit I was in love with him and it was the first time truly in love nd I was happy , now I also admit I'm also very Insicure (sp?) and I worry if my friends still like me do they bitch about me nd all that but I trust them so I know they arnt but I still worry and I font know if u know this but I love my friends so much I would happily die for them , anyway I had the same worries about J but I decided to trust him and I felt betrayed and hurt by him . He told me it was because he had lots of revising to do for his exams coming up and he didn't think it would be fair on me because I would never see him and we can carry on when jes gone to collage. I wish I could truly believe that and trust him to tell me the truth about y he broke up with me but I trusted him not to do that to me so doon in the first place I mean look at the pathetic exudes iv used in the past awfully similar intact quoting clubs Tver revision is my exuse . I don't know what to believe but I do know I don't want to leave this in a bad way and we are leaving us I'm not something to be shoved away then baught back again when he's ready I can't be put-on hold . Ah this sounds oh so cheesy I wonder r if part of me thinks this is a wattpad story and he'll come running back to me nearby a meanful thoughtful gift or some American cheese like that . Meh there I go again sounding like a moony hormonal teenage girl oh wait I am one ugh this sucks :( this holiday better get better it il be 'we'll' pussed of :) if you got this far in my complaint congratulations u deserve a virtual cookie . Go on take one youv earned it font worry I promise they won't take up much memory :p - Rainiepie xoxo

I say sorry way to much

hiya all I have one excuse for my 2 month long neglect . my comp. kept crashing in the middle of my writing . you see i kept making a list of everything i got for Christmas which was a while a go and then a kept losing no i cant be bothered to update everything coz a ) i cant remember and b) im too lazy so il tell you about today :)  sorry man thars all i seem to say . i went shopping in street with Emily and ugh my sister and........ GEORGIA ,no not georgia aka kenny aka Ash (her surname) but Emily's Georgia yeah , i met her! she's so cute. i had so much fun . and i didnt finsh this and now its bedtime and now im going to finish really quickly. Georgia and Emily had a whiped spray can cream fight and this prissy lady went ooh my coat then asked if they could do childish activities elsewhere well not exactly in those words but still :) we spent ages in clairs and tesco went on the merry go round bought loads of clairs suprise goody bags 10 items for £3 and i spent ages in the works and yeah that was it you can probs read more on both Emilies and Georgias bloga and u get pictures with ems coz her blogs better than mine :)